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ir hats and called you Lord and there was good hunting。 I had gone to no such place but to the smoke of caf閟 and nights when the room whirled and you needed to look at the wall to make it stop； nights in bed； drunk； when you knew that that was all there was； and the strange excitement of waking and not knowing who it was with you； and the world all unreal in the dark and so exciting that you must resume again unknowing and not caring in the night； sure that this was all and all and all and not caring。 Suddenly to care very much and to sleep to wake with it sometimes morning and all that had been there gone and everything sharp and hard and clear and sometimes a dispute about the cost。 Sometimes still pleasant and fond and warm and breakfast and lunch。 Sometimes all niceness gone and glad to get out on the street but always another day starting and then another night。 I tried to tell about the night and the difference between the night and the day and how the night was better unless the day was very clean and cold and I could not tell it； as I cannot tell it now。 But if you have had it you know。 He had not had it but he understood that I had really wanted to go to the Abruzzi but had not gone and we were still friends； with many tastes alike； but with the difference between us。 He had always known what I did not know and what； when I learned it； I was always able to forget。 But I did not know that then； although I learned it later。 In the meantime we were all at the mess； the meal was finished； and the argument went on。 We two stopped talking and the captain shouted； 〃Priest not happy。 Priest not happy without girls。〃
〃I am happy；〃 said the priest。
〃Priest not happy。 Priest wants Austrians to win the war；〃 the captain said。 The others listened。 The priest shook his head。
〃No；〃 he said。
〃Priest wants us never to attack。 Don't you want us never to attack？〃
〃No。 If there is a war I suppose we must attack。〃
〃Must attack。 Shall attack！〃
The priest nodded。
〃Leave him alone；〃 the major said。 〃He's all right。〃
〃He can't do anything about it anyway；〃 the captain said。 We all got up and left the table。
4
The battery in the next garden woke me in the morning and I saw the sun ing through the window and got out of the bed。 I went to the window and looked out。 The gravel paths were moist and the grass was wet with dew。 The battery fired twice and the air came each time like a blow and shook the window and made the front of my pajamas flap。 I could not see the guns but they were evidently firing directly over us。 It was a nuisance to have them there but it was a fort that they were no bigger。 As I looked out at the garden I heard a motor truck starting on the road。 I dressed； went downstairs； had some coffee in the kitchen and went out to the garage。
Ten cars were lined up side by side under the long shed。 They were top…heavy； blunt…nosed ambulances； painted gray and built like moving…vans。 The mechanics were working on one out in the yard。 Three others were up in the mountains at dressing stations。
〃Do they ever shell that battery？〃 Tasked one of the mechanics。
〃No； Signor Tenente。 It is protected by the little hill。〃
〃How's everything？〃
〃Not so bad。 This machine is no good but the others march。〃 He stopped working and smiled。 〃Were you on permission？〃
〃Yes。〃
He wiped his hands on his jumper and grinned。 〃You have a good time？〃 The others all grinned too。
〃Fine；〃 I said。 〃What's the matter with this machine？〃
〃It's no good。 One thing after another。〃
〃What's the matter now？〃
〃New rings。〃
I left them working； the car looking disgraced and empty with the engine open and parts spread on the work bench； and went in under the shed and looked at each of the cars。 They were moderately clean； a few freshly washed； the others dusty。 I looked at the tires carefully； looking for cuts or stone bruises。 Everything seemed in good condition。 It evidently made no difference whether I was there to look after things or not。 I had imagined that the condition of the cars； whether or not things were obtainable； the smooth functioning of the business of removing wounded and sick from the dressing stations； hauling them back from the mountains to the clearing station and then distributing them to the hospitals named on their papers； depended to a considerable extent on myself。 Evidently it did not matter whether I was there or not。
〃Has there been any trouble getting parts？〃 I asked the sergeant mechanic。
〃No； Signor Tenente。〃
〃Where is the gasoline park now？〃
〃At the same place。〃
〃Good；〃 I said and went back to the house and drank another bowl of coffee at the mess table。 The coffee was a pale gray and sweet with condensed milk。 Outside the window it was a lovely spring morning。 There was that beginning of a feeling of dryness in the nose that meant the day would be hot later on。 That day I visited the posts in the mountains and was back in town late in the afternoon。
The whole thing seemed to run better while I was away。 The offensive was going to start again I heard。 The division for which we worked were to attack at a place up the river and the major told me that I would see about the posts for during the attack。 The attack would cross the river up above the narrow gorge and spread up the hillside。 The posts for the cars would have to be as near the river as they could get and keep covered。 They would； of course； be selected by the infantry but we were supposed to work it out。 It was one of those things that gave you a false feeling of soldiering。
I was very dusty and dirty and went up to my room to wash。 Rinaldi was sitting on the bed with a copy of Hugo's English grammar。 He was dressed； wore his black boots； and his hair shone。
〃Splendid；〃 he said when he saw me。 〃You will e with me to see Miss Barkley。〃
〃No。
〃Yes。 You will please e and make me a good impression on her。〃
〃All right。 Wait till I get cleaned up。〃
〃Wash up and e as you are。〃
I washed； brushed my hair and we started。
〃Wait a minute；〃 Rinaldi said。 〃Perhaps we should have a drink。〃 He opened his trunk and took out a bottle。
〃Not Strega；〃 I said。
〃No。 Grappa。〃
〃All right。〃
He poured two glasses and we touched them； first fingers extended。 The grappa was very strong。
〃Another？〃
〃All right；〃 I said。 We drank the second grappa； Rinaldi put away the bottle and we went down the stairs。 It was hot walking through the town but the sun was starting to go down and it was very pleasant。 The British hospital was a big villa built by Germans before the war。 Miss Barkley was in the garden。 Another nurse was with her。 We saw their white uniforms through the trees and walked toward them。 Rinaldi saluted。 I saluted too but more moderately。
〃How do you do？〃 Miss Barkley said。 〃You're not an Italian； are you？〃
〃Oh； no。〃
Rinaldi was talking with the other nurse。 They were laughing。 〃What an odd thing……to be in the Italian army。〃
〃It's not really the army。 It's only the ambulance。〃
〃It's very odd though。 Why did you do it？〃
〃I don't know；〃 I said。 〃There isn't always an explanation for everything。〃
〃Oh； isn't there？ I was brought up to think there was。〃
〃That's awfully nice。〃
〃Do we have to go on and talk this way？〃
〃No；〃 I said。
〃That's a relief。 Isn't it？〃
〃What is the stick？〃 I asked。 Miss Barkley was quite tall。 She wore what seemed to me to be a nurse's uniform； was blonde and had a tawny skin and gray eyes。 I thought she was very beautiful。 She was carrying a thin rattan stick like a toy riding…crop； bound in leather。
〃It belonged to a boy who was killed last year。〃
〃I'm awfully sorry。〃
〃He was a very nice boy。 He was going to marry me and he was killed in the Somme。〃
〃It was a ghastly show。〃
〃Were you there？〃
〃No。〃
〃I've heard about it；〃 she said。 〃There's not really any war of that sort down here。 They sent me the little stick。 His mother sent it to me。 They returned it with his things。〃
〃Had you been engaged long？〃
〃Eight years。 We grew up together。〃
〃And why didn't you marry？〃
〃I don't know；〃 she said。 〃I was a fool not to。 I could have given him that anyway。 But I thought it would be bad for him。〃
〃I see。〃
〃Have you ever loved any one？〃
〃No；〃 I said。
We sat down o